The Story of My Spiritual Awakening
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I was never the person that read my daily horoscope or had much spirituality in my bones. To be honest, I was pretty agnostic.
My whole world and perspective started to shift in October 2021 when we lost my brother very unexpectedly and suddenly.
Weirdly enough, about a week before his passing, I started listening to the audiobook ‘Signs: The Secret Language of the Universe’ by Laura Lynn Jackson out of curiosity. I started wondering about the afterlife and if our loved ones really can send us signs after they pass.
Then in comes tragedy and the amount of CRAZY signs (peep some examples below - my brother’s name is Ricky, which isn’t a super common name you see everyday..) I noticed in the weeks following his death, coupled with the CRAZY visitation dreams I experienced (& never had before!), I was convinced there was something more beyond our consciousness.
October 26th, 2021: Here I was creating a Facebook cover photo for my upcoming 30th birthday event which was at the beach. I picked out this Canva template because of the beach theme without seeing that the default language had his name in it.
October 27th, 2021: We were at dinner with friends at a new restaurant and, I KID YOU NOT, I ordered this drink, the Thai Basil Ricky, without even realizing it had the name Ricky in it…totally glazed past that fact until my boyfriend pointed it out to me.
October 27th, 2021: From time to time, I look at new puppies because for awhile I was wanting another dog. Well what do ya know, this one was named Ricky (I’m guessing the litter was I Love Lucy themed based on the other named Lucy).
I just KNEW that Ricky was around me and sending me these signs.
For the next several months until February 2022, I started to feel this INTENSE inner knowing that something was shifting for me and that I needed to make some changes in life. I couldn’t put my finger on what was shifting or why or what the heck I needed to do. But the intensity was REAL.
It almost felt like I needed to jump ship from a sinking boat but had no idea why I needed to jump other than someone telling me to do so…and I was so conditioned during this time that I didn’t believe I would be safe if I did so.
This is the best and my favorite depiction of a spiritual awakening. I just couldn’t see the other hand of the universe that was waiting to catch me.
A great deal of this “suffering” was surrounding my career. In March 2021, I returned to the company I had been at previously that I LOVED in a position I had been striving for. With this new job came a steep learning curve, which I expected. And they say it takes you about 6 months to feel super comfy in a new position.
By the time that 6 months was up, I was struggling..but not with the lack of job knowledge or experience. Instead I was feeling INCREDIBLY frustrated and straight up burnt out. I had an intense inner knowing that this wasn’t the career path I was meant to be taking.
But WHAT THE HELL was I supposed to be doing instead?!
My interior design business had failed. Real estate wasn’t working out for me. I felt like I was forcing all of these prior entrepreneurial ventures, so why would I attempt yet another? And what the heck would it even be?
Exactly ONE WEEK on February 27th, 2022 before my 30th birthday on March 6th, 2022, I discovered Human Design while scrolling through TikTok in bed that night.
Never before had I felt as seen or understood.
As I began going down the rabbit hole, learning about my chart and even reading my family and friends’ charts, I was completely convinced that this was it. There was NO doubt that I’m a spirit that’s here to live out a lifetime on the physical plane for a very specific purpose.
The next day I reached out to my longtime friend, Kimberly, who was really the only person I knew that was into mystical tools such as astrology (peep my initial texts to her on the right).
Of COURSE Kimberly had heard of Human Design. In fact, she told me she was talking to another friend the other day about my profile, the 6/2 profile.
Kimberly was also coming to my birthday weekend the following week, which was something we weren’t initially sure if she’d be able to make it. However, she felt called that she needed to be there.
Having her there to discuss all things spiritual was the biggest blessing, and to this day she has become my go-to gal as I walk through this new spiritual life.
All in all, the synchronicities surrounding my discovery of Human Design and my pivotal 30th birthday were pretty astounding as I look back on it.
Fast forward to now - here we are, almost a year later and this spiritual awakening has lead me to:
+ having enough faith to quit my corporate job that I hated to pursue my spiritual self-love coaching business
+overcoming my debilitating anxiety and depression through radical self-awareness and self-acceptance
+exploring things considered to be “taboo” because I stopped caring about societal expectations
+developing more-aligned friendships, and growing current friendships that were already aligned
+taking huge steps in my romantic relationship
+becoming conscious and no longer living life on autopilot
+developing my intuitive and healing gifts (more on that in a future post)
and so. much. more…
Concluding thoughts
Without a doubt, my spiritual awakening was ignited with the passing of my brother. Why that tragedy had to happen in order for this beautiful experience to open up for me - that I haven’t quite grasped yet. But I do believe in the bigger picture here - that I am here to help heal the planet and awaken consciousness. I’m still very early on in my journey, and I can’t wait to see what unfolds from here.
xoxo,
Kirstyn